I don't want it, it sucks but I'll be ok. Many of you guys know me from the other board and know that I slacked off participation a little over a year ago to handle some family stuff. Well, I quit drinking on January 1st 2019 and have not had a drop since. My wife was diagnosed with bipolar disorder after a severe bout with postpartum depression. She got manic and told me she waned a divorce then, but then returned to normal. Then it happened again and again. Over the last two months we had become closer than we had been in 10 years, I fell in love with her all over again, like new love man. Then one day she got depressed and refused to get out of bed, this happened for an entire weekend. It is always the same pattern but she can not see it. It is real to her. So....I literally have a Ph.D. in clinical psychology, she has a masters degree in mental health counseling, but those years of training and experience don’t do anything but make everything worse. She can't see it, her illness, and I can not make her see it. It happens exactly the same way every time. I have basically been living as the single parent of two little guys now 5 and 1.5. While she is either lying in bed unable or unwilling to face the world, or friggin starting a new business on top of haviing a full-time job. She is never here when she is manic or she just comes home talks about how "overstimulating" the boys and I are and goes outside and drinks until she comes in and goes to bed. I do 90% of everything including watching the kids while she works on her business. That would be ok if she didn't also open a separate personal account and puts all the money she makes from the buisiness in that account. This started when our 1.5 year old was two months old. It was so extreme that he for a long time only showed affection to me. I believe that to serve another is the highest aspiration of the human heart, so I've done that with gratitude. When the mania hits she cant even recognize anything that I do for her. Its is always "I always take care of the kids" she cannot see the truth even if it is staring her in the face. Then she blames me for all of her issues; and denies that she even has bipolar. THIS IS Where all of my smoking time went.
With all of that, I love her so much. I'd lay down my life for her.
I want us to be together.
But her getting this divorce is kind of a relief after this three year battle.
I'm tired.
I AM REALLY GLAD TO HAVE FOUND YOU GUYS over here.
I look
Let me know if anybody wants to vHERF LATE tomorrow; I MIGHT BE ABLE TO MAKE IT.
With all of that, I love her so much. I'd lay down my life for her.
I want us to be together.
But her getting this divorce is kind of a relief after this three year battle.
I'm tired.
I AM REALLY GLAD TO HAVE FOUND YOU GUYS over here.
I look
Let me know if anybody wants to vHERF LATE tomorrow; I MIGHT BE ABLE TO MAKE IT.
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